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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2007|04:37 pm]
gusto ko lang sabihin nakita ko si kitche nadal kanina sa Big W sa men's department.

...at yung bodyguard niya nung Saturday ay nakakatakot na kalbo.
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(no subject) [Feb. 20th, 2007|02:05 pm]
sayang. sayang na sayang. at ako rin ang may kasalanan kung baket sayang. sinayang. sobrang sinayang.

oo, nasa huli ang pagsisisi.
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ikaw pa rin. ikaw pa rin. [Nov. 13th, 2006|09:37 am]
i don't want to love you anymore. you don't want to love me anymore. you don't want me to love you anymore. but why does it seem i'm still in love with you? i still love you. i can't be. i shouldn't be. but i am. and i do.

why won't you go away?


(no subject) [Nov. 11th, 2006|11:46 am]
[i am |sadsad]
[sounds |Hellbender - Luntian]

disappointment #5: wala kang sariling kusa.

(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2006|06:14 pm]
[i am |blankblank]

So I'm going to complain/whinge/bitch/rant. Mainly whinge. On the way home, in the car, Ramon and Jan were talking about their girlfriends and anniversaries and presents and going out. Jan's broke and it's his 4th year with Michelle.

Jan is stressing out because he doesn't know what to give Michelle, after all the jewellery and flowers and chocolates and lovey-dovey stuff (okay, those are the things I know) he's given her before. I remember, Jan got Mich this heart necklace. I think he's given her another necklace ever since and earings and a bracelet for birthdays and anniversaries. If I heard Jan correctly (he was driving, the stereo was on, I was on the backseat), he's considering a necklace for this anniv because "she can't seem to find the right one" for a particular outfit. I have another friend like that-- gives jewellery to his girlfriends.. and then they break up with him (haha). I remember, for my 18th birthday, the boys got me a pretty bracelet.

Ramon got Lucy a watch that he had engraved. He was really happy and excited about it. I think I'll check Luc's wrist next time I see her. Then, he was saying something about a hotel, how he wanted to get the other place for Lucy's 21st, but settled for The Meriton instead.

Ramon and Lucy, from observation, have the same relationship that I had with a particular ex-boyfriend: Ramon takes Lucy shopping; they eat at the foodcourt, eat here, eat there, eat this, eat that; buy thoughtful, sometimes expensive, sometimes cheap presents.. no issue with money-- anything for him/her ("issue" in the sense that it doesn't matter how expensive it is or how cheap it is or even though i don't have money because I didn't work last week. It didn't matter).

We drop off Ramon at Blacktown Station because he's going to Parramatta with Lucy. I asked Jan what he and Michelle does when they're together and he says something that is sooo true: everywhere we go, it's 'eating' that we worry about-- we get to Westfield, we eat first. We go to the beach and Michelle asks what we're going to eat. Of course we're going to have fish and chips, but we tend to stress or worry when. Haha. Tell me you can relate! Going out, you're going to have to eat. It revolves around eating. Food's good.

So besides eating, what do you do?

Oh, we ice skate, watch dvd's at my place, go for a drive. Mainly Wollonggong, just enjoying the view.

As Jan and I were talking about this, I couldn't help thinking that Felix and I don't do anything. While my friends treat their girlfriends out to "eat" and give jewellery and chocolates and flowers and take them shopping, I get a boyfriend who refuses to get a haircut (and has grown hair just like my ex-boyfriend) and shaves only so that he looks neat for work. I get to wait until 10pm only to watch him slowly fall asleep on the couch. I get to eat at second-hand restaurants (restaurants that he has taken his ex's before). I get to eat kebab for dinner (or some other meaty food. fyi, i'm not a big meat eater). I've memorised that it takes a 10-12 minute drive on the M4 before the parramatta exit and another 9 minutes from Sound Master at Woodville Rd to his place. I get text message greetings for our monthly's. I've managed to make a "hole" on the sofa in front of the tv. I've discovered my love for watching tv and movies alone at night. I've learned how to stop shopping. I've let go of the importance of photographs for memories. I found plenty of time to dream to go to different places and do so many things.

So is it okay that I'm just a teeny-weeny bit complaining? Sometimes, it's okay, but really, I think I just got used to it already that it doesn't matter anymore. Maybe I just miss my fun and happy self.

I'm going out tomorrow. By myself.

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Crocs Rule! [Sep. 20th, 2006|07:32 pm]
[i am |sadsad]
[sounds |tv]

Mate, we'll miss you. Rest in peace, Steve Irwin.
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2006|07:01 pm]
[i am |anxiousanxious]
[sounds |Futurama]

Any suggestions for a GOOD beach resort?
Luzon and Visayas only, please.

PLEASE. Provide ninyo na rin yung website address, kung meron.
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(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2006|08:55 pm]
[i am |sleepysleepy]
[sounds |bic runga - roll into one]

i love your "come hither" (and can also be "i'm so sleepy") eyes.

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(no subject) [Aug. 22nd, 2006|09:44 am]
[i am |stressedstressed]
[sounds |Comfortable - John Mayer]

because i miss posting pictures..

this was taken as a test shot for my assignment,
back in April, 2006.
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(no subject) [Aug. 1st, 2006|08:30 pm]
[sounds |Huling El Bimbo]



I will love you. I will talk to you. I will listen to you. I will tell you off. I will hang out with you. I will call you. I will not talk to you. I will not listen to you. I will shop with you. I will watch movies with you. I will check out girls and guys with you. We will buy shoes together. We will set to meet at 10am but I will arrive at 10:30 and you, at 11. I will ask you if my bum looks big and/or sticks out in this and will not get mad if you say it does (because I have a flat bottom). We will have one hundred or more pictures a month. I will ask you how your mum and dad are. I will ask about your family. You can eat with mine. We can eat a lot. We can diet together. We can listen to music together. We can bitch about how this guy got your girl or this girl got your guy. We can laugh. We can cry. We can burp. We can run, walk, catch the bus, the train, ferry. I can't drive. I want to care for someone besides my boyfriend. I need to hear other people. I need to talk to other people. I need you. I want someone I can learn things from. I need/want someone to do all sorts of activities with.

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